It took me 1280 steps to complete the whole waterfront from one end to the other. Hmmm, guess it’s not that far after all. Lol. Was suppose to finish this post over the weekend, but something came up so I had to delay. Hopefully things like this will not popped up again suddenly.. Hehehe.
Not too sure what to blog about today, as it was pretty slow day. Despite the fact that it didn’t rain, it was good. Was having a mini conversation with a friend of mine whom I haven’t talked since a week before new year. Apparently she wasn’t feeling well as well, so I guess we were on the same boat. Lol.
Ok, this is going to be a tough topic to explain as I never received this type of question before. It started out, when she asked me :-
L : How’s Esther doing?
Me : She’s fine and doing very well.
L : So she’s pretty much the center of your universe now huh?
Me : Yeap. She’s pretty much everything to me.
Here comes the million dollar questions.
L : So do you love Esther more or Deluxe more?
Me : I love them both very much.
L : If you were to choose, which one would you love more ?
Me : Well, it’s going to be a long explanation, so I guess you better read my blog later tonight or tomorrow. Lol.
Anyway, my friend ended wondering if her mom loves her more or her dad. hehehe.. So ok, on to the answer. Never the less, Esther came into our life has brought us joy. But I guess the love I have for Deluxe is totally 101% different for what I feel for Esther. I would take a bullet for both of them if I have to, but let’s hope it wouldn’t resort to that. Again, why I said it’s different is because what I have feel for Deluxe is purely love till death do us part. And yes, this is the kind of love where I would climb the highest mountain, swim the deepest ocean, run the longest road just to see her. And I do get the feeling of “Mandi tak basah, tidur tak lena, makan tak kenyang” (Bath but don’t get wet, can’t sleep well, eat also cannot full) all the time. And one day not seeing her can die one, I tell you. That’s the kind of love which I have for Deluxe. And yes, she is someone whom I would love to grow old with and to spend the rest of my life with her.
Esther on the other hand, is more of a responsibility of a father I guess. She means a lot to me, because she’s a part of me as well. Being a part of me is to make sure that she don’t hurt herself, else it would hurt me. So whatever she goes through, I am a part of it and it would be great to see her in whatever competition or plays she might be in. Anyway, the short little clip currently playing from “The Pursuit of Happyness” (watch it if you haven’t), basically that’s how I felt when Esther came into my world. And I quote what Will Smith said “this part of my life this little part is called happiness“. It’s something which is pretty much to difficult till one goes through that experience. From the moment she was born, it was indeed a magical moment for both Deluxe and myself. As I recalled the moment when Deluxe held her in her hands, she gave both of us a smile. Never the less, life was never the same after that. Yes, she indeed gave us a lot of tons of new experience but as she grows up everyday, I pretty much look forward on what she intends to do for the day. I think I’ll be a little over protective over her, especially when she gets a little bit older and when boys begin to come into the picture. Lol.
One day, I know that Esther would leave us. When she’s all grown up and pretty much will be starting a family of her own. So the only person who will be standing next to me at the end of the day would be Deluxe. So who do I love more ? Well, the answer is I love them both the same. They are the main reason why I should continue working the best in my life to provide for them. So basically, it’s all good 
Hehehe. Happy Chap Goh Meh all.
