It has been 3 days that I’ve been staying alone in the shop. Both Deluxe and Esther along with my mum went to KL to attend a close friend wedding. And apparently life without them really feels strange. This is practically the first time that I was left alone ever since Deluxe and I got married. Normally it was the other way round, as I would be the one who is traveling. And both Deluxe and Esther pretty much stayed behind, but not alone of course. Either my mom in law or my mom will be around to accompany her.
Anyway, I pretty much miss the loud noise of Esther when she gets up and wanted to go down or just running around the bedroom shouting. I miss the way she would say “Good Morning, Pa Pa”, and not to mention at times I would bathe her. I miss her running around in the shop, and me telling her to stop doing or grabbing things around. Yeah, I pretty much miss everything about her.
But the one I truly miss is Deluxe whom I felt suddenly so lonely not being able to see her when I wake up. Not being able to hear her speak, and asking me what would I like to have this morning. And during lunch time she would just go down and asked me to have lunch first, and also every 2-3 hours come down to check if I need a toilet break. I miss her smile, her voice, her scent, her hugs, and love that she always showers me. I couldn’t imagine if we were going to be apart for how many weeks or even months, what more to say years. And yes, being married to someone pretty much makes you settled down and don’t really fancy going out if you really have to.
For the past few nights, I’ve only went out yesterday which was to meet a group of my ex-schoolmates who have been in Kuching but never really got the chance to meet with them. I was not able to stay long, as I pretty much got slightly a bit tired when the clock hits about 9pm. I don’t know, but I guess life’s like that I suppose. Thursday night I was at home doing the podcast, Friday night I was at home watching Inception, last night went out for the gathering, and tonight I’m at home finishing up the 2nd part of the laundry. It’s not that I’m complaining or anything, just that it feels so much nicer being at home rather than going out. Haha.
Maybe for those out there probably might judge me because well, Deluxe and I have been married like that for 3 years, and we still have those puppy love kinda thingy. And the journey is still long ahead, but I do pray everyday that I shall always remain faithful to her no matter what. No doubt people may say that she may not be like Britney Spears anymore in 40 years time, but I do have to remind others that I’m no Tom Cruise neither.
So the moral of the story? Hopefully when we do grow old, I do hope that I wouldn’t ended up being senile. And pretty much annoy Deluxe most of the time. Lol. But I’m looking forward to the very last day that I breathe, the last thing I would love to tell Deluxe is that “Can you make me another bowl of kolo mee? All these years, from the moment that we’ve been together. The only person that I have love is you, and you only.” And I do hope that I’ll be able to utter those words to her, and I pray that God will allow me to do so. Else I’ll end up senile, and don’t even what to say. You guys have a good Monday tomorrow 
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